u/Far_Priority6943

Hello reddit. I 18 female and my boyfriend, who we will call B 20 male, have been dating for 5 months now. B obviously wants to have sex,but I always shut down the subject, and he always respects that. But what B doesn't know is I have been through very bad sexual situations since I was very young, including rape, molestation, etc. I haven't told B about iut this because I worry about what he might think of me. But even just the thought of intimacy turns my stomach. So what do I do, reddit? I feel like you all will say to tell B, but I was never believed when I told my family/teachers, so I dont know if that's a good idea.