I want to share my experience so others can learn from it.
I had people that I've known meli kont fi touns, ki tla3t lel barra kont hezez ketfi b le faite enou aandi communauté w entourage yaawnk bch yhotk fl s7an. Ki wselt tesdamt bl we9a3:
L ghorba t3ari, ma famech ra9aba ijtima3ia li hia haja behia kenek ensen 7or, ama l insen l m3a9ed bch yal9a ardhia khesba leli yheb yaamlou. If it's envy, since mazelna ki wselna donc we're down in the social ladder donc ay haja behia taamalha hia tahdid to that insecure person. W kenou aamal khir menek fi haja raw mch ydhelk aaleha. La dhouroufk la welou, they will project their self hate into you w ki ychoufk fi position hoa bidou ken feha 9bal, bch ysalt aalik anwe3 l i9sa2 wel ta7jim aala a9sa jehdou. Ken enti aandk haja hoa ma aandouch, enti insen se9t kifeh you don't share it khater heka 7a9ou l moktasab. Ma fama hata chay tekhdho l rabi, kol fe3l khir mahma balghet tafehtou hoa advance payment l hajet mch tal9a rohk mas2oul aaleha mbaad. W ghir hedha kol bch tal9a ta9zim l lel fouras wel hajet wel aabed li mawjouda fl bled, kayeni jet aala iinehom l 3oura, li hoa men dekhel khouf w insecurity w rafdh total l kol diversification tnajm tsir lel identité mteek. Melekher aabed theb takhla9 touns west l bled li tiich fiha, which is not a bad thing in itself, homesickness w enek t7en l bledk ehses tabi3i aalekher, ama li mch tabi3i enou touns l wahida li taawd tbni feha hia bidha touns li hrabt menha: l dwena mtaa nes, enek tkoun msakr aal aalem w aal aabed, l khanga, self hate, w oufo9 mteek msakr bel mefteh wel chorlia. Hedha ghir enou ay mouhawla lik to claim your independence bch tetra ka dwena zeda. Chmaaneha aandk ma ta3mel, wala t9oul le aala programme, wala ykoun aandk ray. Tahseb rohk khir ml aabed khater you don't want to merge into one blob with 0 boundaries?
Akid mch tajerb kol kifkif, ama li nahki fih nra fih akther meli nra fi aaksou. If you relate with what I'm saying, ahsn nsiha najm naatihelk hoa enek ma tkhafch enek takhla9 distance, tnawe3 mel aabed li traha. Hata ken meloul blkol bch talka rohk wahdk w tadhrbk l hiout. At the end of the day, enek takhtar l wehda khir men anha takhtark. Takhla9 routine mteek tebni mabed2k tasaal rohk ena chnoa nhb mel experience hedhi wahdk maghir tachwich w maghir influence and you reach out to the world, not ouf of need ama men insen yaarf rohou chnoa yheb w chnoa ma yhbch w chnoa yetle2m maa chakhsitou w routinou w dhouroufou. L behi wel khayb fi kol blasa, twensa wala mch twensa, aarab wala mch aarab. Be open minded, khalik aandk track w awareness lel identité mteek bch ykoun aandk control akther. It doesn't matter kenk insen mouhafedh walle, l klem ymchi fl halet lkol tnajm tiich w tanjah maghir ma you compromise your religion. You did the hard step enek tokhroj mn bledk w rahtk w taafs bar ghrib w aabed ghriba, you can definitely create your own path!