Relapsed…
I was doing so well, but I have gone through a very rough few weeks. I ended up going to a mall and spending like $1,200. It felt so good, I’m not going to lie, but I am a bit ashamed now as I confront another credit card bill and the fact that I will not hit a big financial milestone for myself. I will also not have any fun money for my upcoming birthday, which is a bummer but I’m kind of ok with that.
But, I am actually proud that it did not trigger any online shopping, which was my biggest problem. I have not shopped, except for that one day, and I’m not letting this set back hold me back.
I’ve been in therapy for a while now, and I’ve noticed it’s really helping. I am not speaking as negatively to myself, and I’m not letting this one set back define me. I am still really proud of how far I’ve come, and how I’ve stuck to my rule about online shopping. It’s all about the progress, not perfection! Hopefully I can lean to refine my rules even more so something like this doesn’t happen down the line.