I broke up with my abusive ex-boyfriend, but now I’m consumed by rage and want him to face consequences. How do I cope?
I recently broke up with my ex-boyfriend, but instead of feeling free relieved, I am overwhelmed by anger and pain. Looking back, I realize how horribly abusive he was, both mentally and sexually.
Mentally, he would constantly yell at me, slam objects, lecture me for hours, and give me the silent treatment.
Sexually, after lecturing me, he would forcibly strip off my clothes. Even though I repeatedly told him "no" and begged him to stop, he would insert his fingers into my an*s. He also consistently refused to use condoms no matter how many times I asked.
Now that we’ve broken up, all these traumatic memories are flooding back. I am in so much pain because I feel like I wasted my precious time with him. He is a textbook narcissist, so I know he doesn’t think he did anything wrong. He probably believes the breakup is entirely my fault.
I hate him so much. I want him to suffer the way he made me suffer. I want him to realize what a monster he is, and I want him to face the consequences of his actions. I am seriously considering contacting his university to report his behavior in hopes of getting him expelled.
For those who have survived similar abuse, how did you cope with this intense anger? How did you move forward and stop letting the injustice consume you? Any advice or support would be greatly appreciated.