u/Far_Teach_6392

sorry first time posting on this sub fr but does anyone else get really angry just thinking about how they have bpd. Like i was abused so so badly in my early years that my brain has functionally changed as a result and the onus is on ME to sort it out and deal with it day by day so that I don’t kill myself. like i think about it it so much it consumes me; i didn’t ask for this i would never want this?????? im someone who genuinely gets by with monthly therapy and dissociation but everytime I feel myself splitting or getting overly attached to someone i just feel sick, because i know this isn’t really me. Not sure how to fully describe it but it’s like im sharing my brain with a parasite?? i hate it so much it’s awful.