i got a rapist arrested but my life is ruined
a few years ago me (now 17M) and my classmate were the only 2 boys in our class and teachers would make us sit next to each other. he was a nice guy at first but then he would start talking about his crush in a very sexual way, so i alerted his crush about it but she didn't really care. he then started talking about raping ALL the girls in class and describing his sexual fantasies in detail to me even when i was begging him to shut up. teachers, classmates, and even the police never cared about my complaints at all.
in fact the girls from our class simply defended him and called me out for "allowing it to happen" and "you called us slurs" (when i never did). i lost a lot of my close friends at this time.
now fast forward a few years till a few months ago, almost none of my school friends were my friends anymore and turned out that the guy was arrested for raping one of my classmates. rather than blaming him, they all shifted their focus on me saying "its all your fault", "you didn't warn us", "you're just as bad as the murderers of junko furuta" (and basically just comparing me and all other men to criminals and rapists). they complained to the principal about me and i was completely isolated and literally even missing out on some of my school classes. their parents called my personal phone number and sent me death threats and told me to "never look at them again" and even tried filing a police report against me for sexual harassment of minors.
they were also the "popular girls" with 1k followers on instagram who knew basically everybody in my city and even my mutuals got the news that "i am a criminal". my parents were mad at me for being involved all, all my friends blocked me, teachers started treating me poorly, my grades fell by 8%, insomnia and depression all got worse, and my first love who i liked for 4 years who almost started dating me started ignoring me until she eventually blocked me because she wouldn't accept the fact that i was telling the truth. she was not friends with my classmates previously but now she is, and all they do is talk about my "crimes" together. (i think this part hurt the most)
for the past 2 months i have had no social life and all i do is play video games and listen to music in bed. i have nobody to talk to at all. i have a lot of suicidal tendencies and feel like throwing up whenever i go outside. i feel anxious in the shower, barely eat and i have small dreams about murdering people almost every day even when i doze of for 30 minutes. i feel no motivation to exercise, smile or do anything in general. therapy has kind of helped but it doesn't have much of an impact. i just feel betrayed by people who i thought loved me. i sometimes really wish i never told anybody about him and just stayed quiet.