I feel like finding a job is impossible
It’s been almost a year since I had to quit my last job. I collapsed one day and couldn’t walk nor stand. It took almost 6 months of physical therapy to be able to walk short distances. I actively feel my legs getting weaker with every step i take. I need income, I’m living with my mom right now but we need more money. I want to get a job but i feel like I wouldn’t be able to do them. I can’t stand for long periods of time, i cant walk for 2 hours without feeling like my legs are giving out on me (that’s with multiple breaks and just walking not carrying or pushing anything), i cant push things uphill because i wont be able to lift my legs up enough and i feel my toes scraping the ground, tbh i cant push anything for even moderate amount of time without my legs starting to shake. I cant even sit down for some time because my feet go numb and will turn purple(sometimes completely paper white) or my entire hip and leg will get pins and needles and eventually become numb. I also cant drive. I have to move around constantly even tho it’s exhausting. I’m 20 years old with only a high school degree. I am in college getting an associate’s degree but it’s fully online, i would not be able to walk around a campus. I used to work retail. I do not qualify for so many jobs. I worked front end lead clerk at a grocery store, which was stressful, but i liked it, but i know i would not be able to do that anymore. I also have a heat intolerance that if im not careful i can break out into hives if im in the heat too long. We need more income and I want to work, i liked my job, but i dont think there is a job i could do. I was thinking about applying for disability but i doubt i would get accepted and if I do, it seems to take too long for acceptance. I dont know what to do and it’s very bothersome. We dont even know what is going on with me. Its all so stressful and truthfully makes me feel like a burden, especially because my mom cant seem to understand just how bad it is. She keeps telling me i need to find a job, her job will barely allow use to scrape by. My sister (about a year older than me) also lives with us and will get a job but shes in college too and will only be able to work part time. I hate seeing my mom so stressed out, but i also feel helpless with everything.
I do live in the USA-.-