u/FeedHaunting591

my program allows you to fail 2 courses and have to make them up, delaying graduation by 2 months. i have reached my max, if you fail a third you have to restart next cohort. my question is, i still have a while until didactic ends. is it worth staying? i’m already in debt from paying for two semesters, not sure if it's worth going into more debt to have to restart in case i fail another course. at the same time, if i dropped out, i still have the part of school i have to pay for, and i also have 0 idea what i would do. i feel like going into a different career would be so hard, and i would want to make money so i can start paying off my debt.

also i go to a private school so it's a lot more expensive

edit: i'm not asking if i should drop out since i failed. i’m asking if financially it would be worth to leave or stay

trying to pray more. i want to make sure i say everything correctly so i normally follow along to a video, but i can't find a good one. there is one on youtube but it sounds robotic and i would rather have a human. does anyone know where i can find that? i've tried looking on the internet but haven't had any luck

i've really been struggling and ask no one to be judgemental. if you're going to be rude and judgy, then please do not waste time commenting.

I am a female, and drink, smoke, and wear "inappropriate" clothing. I am in a relationship with a non-muslim. But my faith is so strong. I believe in Islam and Allah wholeheartedly. I love this religion and everything about it, I just have my own struggles. I have been wanting to commit zina, but haven't because it feels like the only thing I have left. But it's not, I still have such a strong faith and belief. I honestly would have by now, but am scared for how I will feel in the future. I just feel myself getting further and further away from faith. But i still have such a strong belief. I try to pray everyday, but it never seems to work. But I still do it.

I know I'm contradicting myself, but if you are judging me and don't understand, consider yourself grateful you have never had a crisis of faith.

I’m in my first year of PA school and I failed my first class last month. Ever since then, I feel like I’ve been spiraling.

From the beginning, I felt different from a lot of my classmates. I’m very Type B, while everyone else seems incredibly organized, gets to class early, studies constantly, and has their lives together. Rationally, I know that’s probably not true, but it’s hard not to compare myself. I feel like people judge me for not being as “on top of things,” especially now that my grades are reflecting my struggles. I get to class right before it starts, have been late only a few times and have gotten in trouble with my program becasue of it.

The truth is, I haven’t been putting in the effort I know I’m capable of. My motivation is just gone. I know I need to study more, but I can’t seem to make myself do it. I’m tired all the time, everything feels flat, and I’m starting to wonder if this is bigger than PA school and more related to depression.

I have a good support system, but they all live far away. I go home on weekends when I can, but I know I probably need to spend more time studying instead. Seeing my friends working their full-time jobs, making money, and moving forward in life makes me feel behind, even though I know PA school is just a different path. I also do not like the people in my class. They just suck. I also don't like the city I'm in either so I feel so isolated.

I’ve tried to find a therapist, but mental health resources have been difficult to access with my schedule. I was also prescribed Adderall for possible ADHD, but my doctor left the practice shortly afterward. It makes me feel more aware, but it doesn’t help me actually get things done.

I guess I’m posting because I feel stuck. Not the normal “PA school is stressful” kind of stuck, but the “I don’t enjoy anything anymore and can’t find motivation for anything” kind of stuck.

Has anyone else experienced this during PA school (or another healthcare program)? Especially people who are more Type B and felt like they lost all motivation? How did you get out of it?

so i failed a course today. i'm in my first year, and was told it would delay my clinicals and graduation by a month, which i am okay with. but they also said the school would not give me my diploma until august rather than may/ june. i can take the pance in summer, but would not be able to get licensed until i have a diploma. i know it takes about 3 months to get licensed, but because my diploma will not be given until august, will it take another 3 months to practice? i just can't imagine june - october with no income and it's really getting to me. to be clear, i'll have taken the pance by july, just waiting on my diploma which will be given in august. also, how would i explain this when job hunting?