Honey, it's time for another "type me" post in r/Socionics!
Translated from russian because I would've shit myself at least 7 times if I tried to write all this in english. Sorry for all the mistakes.
I'm a fairly passive, aloof, and private person (at least, I've become one). With friends, I like to joke around, sometimes crossing boundaries. With strangers, I try to be reserved and calm, but not cold. As a child, I always wanted to impress others, to show them I was better than them, but now I've grown out of that (?). I've been told more than once that I'm very good at aligning myself with others. Lately, I've been spending a lot of time getting to know myself, my personality, my qualities, and finding my true self. Sometimes I feel like I've never done this before. I've always found it difficult to have any clear goals. When I meet people who really want to achieve something, I always admire them. Roughly speaking, I'm very unambitious. I don't have any higher purpose that would become the meaning of my life. I just go with the flow, occasionally getting entangled in fishing nets.
I'm quite a creative person. In my free time, I draw, make music, and play the guitar. I don't think this says much about my personality type, but still.
There are times when I ponder philosophical ideas. I wouldn't even say I ponder them. It's as if a question or thought is simply placed in my head, and I somehow unnaturally come to certain conclusions. That is, I don't have any kind of logical chain. I don't like going to extremes; I never choose sides in a conflict, not even because I'm afraid of offending one side, but because, more often than not, both sides are right and wrong at the same time. I believe that radicalism is wrong. I almost always understand others and try to see the situation from their perspective. I can forgive a lot.
Sometimes I act as a mediator. For example, when one person in a group says something offensive to another, looking for a fight, I almost reflexively try to defuse the situation with a joke or something. I hate conflicts, especially physical ones, especially over nothing.
It's hard to surprise me. I don't experience any "wow" reactions to plot twists in movies.
When something in my life goes wrong, it's like waking up from a deep sleep. I become more productive and start coming up with more ideas. I don't like thinking about the future. As a child, I especially disliked answering questions like, "What do you want to be in the future?" I still hate it.
My relationship with the physical world is rather strained. I've never liked sports, and I've never been able to cook. Sometimes I get lost in my own thoughts and forget where I'm going, missing turns. Basically, Beta ST facepalm.
I'm pretty sure that I'm NF, IEI has been my most prominent typing, but I'm still not sure.