Should I put my life on hold?
I am 23 I’ll be 24 July and I’m a female. I live with my mom and we both get government assistance. Housing, food and she get monthly ssi. Ever since I graduated high school (2021) I was working a cash job cleaning houses. Since April that has ended due to not being paid fairly, over worked and toxic co workers/boss. I hung in there for 4 years but now I’m lost. If I get an actual job I’ll end up having to pay some rent, and my portion of food assistance gets cut off. Also if I make over the allowed amount then I’ll have to move out and she’ll be able to find a 1 bed room for herself and also keep her food stamps. My 41 year old brother lives with us but not on the system. He hasn’t worked in years and he kind of just using this as a break from working and stressing. I could go back to school and I really want to. Maybe this fall at my local community college for medical assistant which takes a year. I do have a bf of 4years and he is always willing to help me with transportation and help support me. He is actually the one who taught me how to drive and tries to get me out the house when he cans. Wants to help me get my drivers license. Unfortunately it’s very hard to live with my mom. I can’t even say some of the things she’s called me or how much she’s threatened to kick me out and she has mental health issues and it just is so frustrating and depressing sitting home all day with her. I didn’t have a great child hood with her. Even been homeless twice. I want a life. I want better. I want to live my life but at what cost. If I ever try to better myself it was force me to cut ties with my mom and also put my brother in a difficult position because as I stated he doesn’t work and is very overweight but I am so miserable and I know I can do better and be better. Ever since I quit my cash job I have been so depressed and having bad thoughts sitting here and listening to my mom negative talks and feel that energy. I’m not sure what to do. I want to give college a shot but unfortunately my mom keeps talking down on it saying I can’t trust people to help me. Any advice? Ask anything in comments and I’ll do my best to answer them. Thank you.