The Worst Summer Ever (I think)
I was a nice student of an english teacher of mine and during the winter break, she told me that one of her students from the 9th grade (I was 10th) (which i have been knowing since the start of the year) wanted to be my girlfriend.
I didn't have an interest in her whatsoever but I eventually asked her out, knowing that she already was going to 2-3 days after i would.
She was way happier and jollier than me at the start because she actually loved me and found me cool and interesting.
I coped with the relationship because she was the smartest student of the 9th's and was sweet, cute and finely attractive, that was enough for me to love her and i knew that my love would grow bigger into a serious relationship because she was actually my type.
We were the two most beloved students of our english teacher who at the time was both of our favourite teacher in the school and we were always chatting together, attending speaking courses together and was pretty much enjoying school itself with everyone being optimistic and flattering.
Months went by and our first serious feud came by, it was because of her classmate.
Her classmate was the most frequent boy she was hanging out with after me or equally to me idk really and he had to change his class to a lower class because he came last in the placing exam inbetween classes and she was in a really bad mood and was constantly blabbing about him being gone and even sketched out a tally chart near the classroom wall where she sat counting the days that went past without him.
And at that time, i saw many relationships between my classmates and none of their girlfriend was that frequent with another boy and that started to piss me off and i eventually tried to warn her but not too explicitly by saying that none of the girlfriends of my friends were that chatty with another boy.
She understood but also started to flame me because i was comparing her to a friend of mine who was notorious for hanging out with multiple girls at the same time.
After the incident, i simply apologised and moved on, not pushing it further because it had already engaged her into hating me a bit for a moment.
Again, months went by and so did her manners but nothing serious happened.
Then came july and the last day of school, i arrived in the morning and after putting my backpack down at my class, i made my way into her class (there is like 10 ppl in the school apart from us so no one is restricting is from anything except not joining the classes at all) and saw that her other boy friends with his friends playing an electric guitar unplugged, i mockingly said that since when did you guys play guitar and continued to say satiric stuff until she snapped and dragged me into an empty class.
She told me that i must respect her friends and not mock them, i defended myself by saying that i was only doing a serious criticism about their playing but she denied and said the same thing.
Then her boy friend came by and we just sat there doing nothing because their teacher didn't came and i didn't have a class at the time.
Then came the noon recess, on fridays we were allowed to go stroll eat or do something else in Kızılay for one hour then return for the class. Kızılay was the neighbourhood our school was located in.
I wasnt on a great mood after that incident and decided to grab an icecream alone at the mcdonalds, then i was halfway through my icecream and she phoned me and said where i was.
She dropped the restaurants location which of couse she and her boy friend was eating at and i arrived there but didnt even spare a smile to neither of them because as i said i was both fuming and sad.
After she and her boy friend ate their burgers, and paid the bill. i immediately took of comically fast from a lying on the table position to sprinting position straight to the school because of the same reason.
She didn't say anything and made her way to the school with his friend.
After the classes ended, I walked with her to her house then to my house like we always did everyday afterschool and she was also really sad because or history and favourite english teacher were resigning.
Again a month went by and nothing happened, i was texting her and my resigned english teacher frequently like in the school days.
But then came the 16th of July, the worst day that i've ever lived so far, i came home from the school's summer camp and was solving text then she suddenly texted me that we must talk.
I didn't think of her leaving me because everything was going just fine but then she said the she had to break up with me because her mother wanted her to focus on her lessons more.
I was staggered and furious because if all along, your mother wanted you to focus on your lessons, then why did you wanted to be my girlfriends months ago?
Out of my shock, i quickly texted her, you're not playing truth or dare with your friends are you?
And she said no and wanted to break up.
I coped with it from the momentarily mix of feelings and quickly mailed my old english teacher the situation and she basically said that she couldnt do anything because it was her mother's decision, which she was right, dammit.
I slept the night crying and after i woke up, I listened to Yesterday by The Beatles because it was the right song for the moment and texted her again about if we could still be friends and overnight, she had changed her thought about me all of a sudden and wanted me to stay away from her and her friends.
I chased her back, apologising and claiming every past event's faults as mine and wanted her to come back but she sent a whole paragrahp about how i was wasting her life and her friends with my manners and ignoring her while daydreaming all the time, and she continued to blame me for nearly everything.
And then i unwillingly blocked her and i was alone.
I was constantly texting my old english teacher about the stuff and she quickly refused to claim any type of responsibility because we were basically two grown teens that could fix this on our own and she wanted me to move own on my life.
What she said to me were the right things but i still loved her and continued to chase her.
I texted his notorious boy friend if he could help me rebuild my relationship with her and he all of a sudden said that i was being obsessive and stalking her and called me honorless and then blocked me.
Not that far away from those things, my english teacher started not responding to my messages and after a few days, she texted me saying that she was getting married and was going to move to an another city and didnt wanted me to text back.
Out of my momentarily respect towards her, i coped with it and wished her a nice life.
She removed me from her instagram but ONLY ME, not any of my other friends following her which made me feel something was off.
I mostly think that she lied to me and wanted to stay away from me because my ex and she was more close to one another and was supporting eachother more and she basically wanted me to stay away.
Phew, after those events, i kinda managed to get back to my normal state until i started seeing my ex in my dreams over and over again.
So, i lost my so called favourite teacher (I'm mostly furious about her because she could've just honestly stated what she was feeling about those stuff and acted at her age) my girfriend, my girlfriends boy friend which i was actually friends with until me texting him.
I know that my story is silly af and i know that theres grammar errors because English is not my first language even tho im trying to get to c2 someday.
I just wanted to share what happened and what i felt, im feeling a bit okay because i still have my friendgroup and my band to spend time with but mostly, this summer was the worst of my life.
I dunno if i did any mistakes in this relationship, certainly i did but mostly it was her fault, she started it and she ended it with her mother first and then hating me afterwards.
So that's it, im still trying to recover, its been a month or so and i think im getting better but still feeling really down.
I'm sorry if my story is silly and out of context again, i just wanted to do what i can do and get along with life.
What are your thougts? I'm always eager to this community's view