u/Feisty_Permission880

when i used to sh, there was never a reason, it was purely out of routine. it started as a way to get my anger out, but pretty soon i just did it because. id get home from school and plan a session into my schedule because i simply had to do it. there were no emotions, such as pressure or sadness. sometimes itd even annoy me that i „had to do it“, but it simply wasnt an option to not do it.