Life is so hard for no reason, just need to vent
I don't have any emergency or crazy drama... I'm just damn frustrated. My whole life I've been either in school or working, I've tried to pull my weight at every job, tried to be courteous and respectful. But it feels like every single year it just gets worse.
My rent has gone up 500 dollars since I started this job, the insurance is so bad my meds cost less when I'm uninsured (but I need hospital visits so I pay for it anyway) i can't afford food easily, it costs so damn much to buy frozen food, or anything that's not just ingredients. I'm behind on every bill, and I haven't seen a raise in 3 years.
I hate this so much. I hate looking for new jobs because getting a raise is apparently impossible. I hate bouncing payday loans every week and pawning stuff just to stay inches above water. Idk i thought in my thirties I'd be struggling to keep up a home and raise a family... instead I'm struggling to stay in a studio apartment and breathe because getting the medical treatment I actually need is too expensive.
Soon I'll have to start paying student loans back for a degree i don't have because getting sick in America means you no longer have money for college... I hate this.
And it's not like there's no solutions... I know that I could be better with money. I know I could cook for myself more often. But right now, I'm just so damn frustrated.
I thought working hard, challenging yourself, chasing dreams...I thought those things were the key to a successful life, instead all I got was a lifetime of debt and no credentials.
I don't think i have a future, and that's what hurts the most.