Asexual wanting to confirm asexuality
Hello everyone, so I have considered myself to be asexual for a few years now, but semi recently, there was a situation where I could have had sex. I told them that I was asexual and they stopped their advances so there was not issue there, however, since they had said this, I have been spiraling about if I would want to try sex at some point. I cannot tell if it is general self-aphobia and subconsciously hoping that if I have sex, then I will be magically fixed or something or if I want to try it to confirm that I am asexual. I think I am only so deep into this line of thought because I want the sense of finality or confirmation of who I am. I am also aware that having sex wouldn’t implicitly mean I’m not asexual but I don’t know, I do kinda just wish I wasn’t asexual.
Anyways what do you all think? And thank you if you read this far even if you don’t have anything to say! Have a good one