how should i continue with my relationship?
when i was 15 i fell in love with a 20 year old man with severe bipolar. i wanted to get away from home, so i convinced him to let me move in with him. he had times where he almost fell out with me and almost didn't go through with letting me stay, but i convinced him to keep me. we’ve been living together since, as a couple. sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i weren’t always cleaning up after him, but i love him. i also love how he makes me feel complete, and he also provides for me. he makes sure to remind me of the fact that he doesn’t actually like me & that i’m infirior to him, but every time he gets drunk he tells me that he doesn’t mean it when he says it. that it just comes out. i don’t know how to feel. if i know that an "i hate you" is actually "i love you" in disguise, does it even truly count? he says bad things but i know how to translate them into what they really mean. i have a happy life, he never makes me feel upset and he never crosses any boundaries. i'm 20 now btw