u/Few-Echidna-1991

My therapist recently increased the frequency of EMDR sessions after a long gap as I regressed so been doing EMDR weekly now for a few weeks (had 3 consecutive sessions so far). The second one was most emotional and this week I have been feeling so hungry along with low bp. I have been eating fine i guess (maybe a little less?) but it’s like I am starving every few hours. Is this normal or am I reading into it too much?

Ever since I started EMDR, my therapist asks after each round the above question… and I have no answer. I do emotionally release by crying, i feel anger, frustration, sadness and other emotions but fail to feel anything in my body. The most I have felt is something in my throat which is right before I start crying. My therapist says it’s fine and people process differently, some by crying, some see images, others feel things but I am not satisfied. Does it mean I am too disconnected from my body? On a side note, I do TRE occasionally and am able to turn on the shaking mechanism.

My question is has this happened to someone else and how did you navigate it? Should I do any body scans meditation or something else to get in touch with my body or just let it be and trust the process? (Don’t do any sort of scans in EMDR jbtw). Any advice or suggestions? Thanks!

To those who are deep into this journey, how do you start to love yourself again and feel worthy of it? I have this deep need to be loved by others (i think i really don’t know what that feels like) but how can they if I don’t consider myself worthy to be loved and give it to myself first. (Like I know I have to change my beliefs because people mirror that and law of assumption etc also says that)

To give some detail, I am on this path for a long time and have kind of pushed away people bcz all I want to do is isolate but I still want my loved ones to show up for me in ways I want. Ik that’s not possible bcz they can only show up the way they know but how to let go of this anger? At times though I know my anger is justified too for some people but it’s making me into this negative mess that I don’t like. I honestly think sometimes I was better off in survival mode and made the wrong decision to put my life on hold to go all in on healing (for context, difficult to hold down on job etc due to other reasons). Idek rn if it’s expected or because I don’t have anything to look forward to in life rn which is making me more bitter. I want to feel full of love for myself so I can pour into others too.

Anyone who went through a similar phase and can suggest something or give me hope? I feel like this will never end…