u/Few-Frosting6826

I have been in academic publishing for years now. While I mostly enjoy content creation and editing, proofreading is my Achilles' Heel. I suck at it, and I hate doing it. Countless are the times I've been pulled up for proofreading errors. My employers have been immensely patient due to my strength in content creation. The company is not large enough to have a separate department for proofreading...everyone does everything. Should I just quit and find something else to do? Can't bear to walk the hall of shame anymore. It is affecting my thoughts and my self-image, so much so that I have even battled with thoughts of self-harm. I'm middle-aged and get scared to find new jobs in this market scenario.