Last night my mom and I both couldn’t sleep the entire night, really odd because this has happened before where I stay up all night even though I get 8hrs of sleep every night. I was bombarded with bad thoughts, and crude or gruesome imagery was flashing through my mind. I wonder if this is because I relapsed yesterday. New to this spiritual stuff.
I am trying to repent for weed, nicotine, and sex addictions after many signs and feelings. I really struggle to stop because these things in some part make me feel good. I feel like my desire to be righteous is just not there and I can’t see my sins as destructive as God sees them. Is this something I can pray over or is He expecting me to prove to him I can do it before he fills me with the spirit again? (I’ve felt jolts but it always goes away eventually. I know He is supposed to give me water from which I will never thirst again.)
“you need to do some serious reflecting in your life. there's no way that you seriously believe that out of the hundreds or thousands of religions in the world, christianity is "THE truth". not everyone shares the same opinion as you, and you don't need to shove christianity down peoples throats. you're ignorant and should probably pick up a book that isn't the bible. - coming from a christian”
Wow…
Hey yall,
Some days I wake up and feel amazing and full of love and light and self control. Other days I’m super depressed, about to cry all day, suicidal thoughts sometimes, don’t want to do anything, am rude and short w people I love, etc. and I’ll pray to God to change me but he doesn’t do anything in the moment to make me feel better. It reminds me of David’s bipolarity- asking God why he’s forsaking him and in other psalms telling us to cast all of our burdens on God.
Does anyone have a similar experience? Is this a young thing or does it stay with you forever?
Love you