I (M18) need advice on what my options are on her (F18)
Im in love but I cant do anything.
Im really only posting this because I really cannot figure anything out on how to deal with it.
Bit backstory, Im in a friend group of 6 people in which theres one girl I think I like, Were all 18 to 20. I never really had a friend group like this, im only really in the group since january this year, I see them all practically multiple times in a week, except her and another girl due to them living in another town/city. And since I really enjoy being part of the group and hitting it off with everyone, im scared to death being alone again so I dont want to start trying to get a relationship.
Ffw to when she was hella drunk and kissed another guy from the group she didnt like, she really disliked it afterwards and made it clear to everyone she doesnt want anything. Whilst everyone just jokes about it I just feel so weird at the thought of someone else being with her, not sad persé but like.. disappointed?
After that people joked around that me and her are quite close and that ee liked eachother, whilst im not entirely sure if I do the following interaction took place which I cannot forget for some reason "But I do not like like right that, and I think you also dont, right?". Being the autist I am I rarely look people in the eyes, but holy shit, you shouldve seen her when I looked up at her ehen she "right?". I denied it out of reaction but since then I just cannot forget her.
But I was very busy till like the end of may so I couldnt be bothered by it, now however whilst I have freetime and mind numbing factory work I just wake up at 5am, and whilst drinking coffee I just think about her. Ive never felt like it before so I think im in love, but im just not sure.
Now normally I would talk to her and see whats up, but im scared it ends up with it becoming weird between me and her or in the group
Tldr; I think I like a girl and dont know what I should do without making it weird between me, her and the rest of our friend group
My bad for grammar, not my first language