what do I do now?
a few months ago, I confessed to one of my close friends.
I really liked him, and even though it seemed unlikely that he would feel the same, I wanted to tell him anyways. he rejects me in the sweetest way, but it still hurt (even if that's what I prepared for). We stay friends, talk like normal and I slowly start to recover. I was just glad nothing was awkward and I still got to be close with him.
then a few weeks ago he texts me, saying he was sorry and how he wished we would work out but we wouldn't- because we were in the same friend group and he didn't want to ruin it. I was a bit shocked, the fact it was all brought up again unraveled the work I had done to get over him. I was also sensing undertones that he might like me back, because why else would you bring it back up after three months? of course i didnt want to assume, and I knew I was biased and going to hope for such things. my response is me saying that it's okay, and I didn't expect anything to come of us after my confession. things go back to normal irl, as if nothing was said.
after a few days he texts me again, confirming he liked me back. once again he says he doesn't think it's a good idea to do anything about it. now I'm in dismay, feeling many emotions. I'm happy he likes me back, in total shock but very very happy. I'm also frustrated and upset with the fact we won't be doing anything about our feelings as to not mess up our friend group.
I completely understand his point of view, and while I'm in pain, I'm trying to put myself in his shoes and understand that he might be upset as well. I want to respect his opinion and the fact he doesn't want to do anything about us, for the sake of our friends, but I also don't want to regret letting a potential relationship escape.
any ideas as to what I should do? should I just let go, and cherish the friendship we have? should I talk to him about it (but what would I say in that situation, that's a main concern)? any thoughts would be very much appreciated!
[I told some close friends recently, and accidentally made one antagonise him.. I apologise for that and hopefully he doesn't get slapped.]