PMDD - I don’t know how much more I can handle
Bi male here married to straight women for 20 years. Since having kids 17 years ago, we have had 17 years of PMDD cycles (oftentimes 3 week cycles) of varying intensity. I don’t have hobbies. The neediness and lack of trust I experience, coupled with passive aggressive/mean behavior and comments are finally breaking me.
It doesn’t help that when the hormone switch flips following her period, it is a happy week of apparent amnesia about how she treated me.
To the point that at times it’s almost comical, but if I acknowledge or mention it, I’m gaslighting her.
Super fun.
Anyway, I am exhausted and have been thoroughly therapy’ed.
I’m tired of not getting any alone time (even an hour every few days) without feeling guilty the entire time.
I’m tired of feeling like I am never doing enough or that no matter my effort, her PMDD makes me feel like I’m still wildly missing the mark for supporting her.
I’m tired.
Anyone feel this? 😞