I feel like I'm lying when i say i have Tourette's
CW: descriptions of tics
I got diagnosed with Tourette's when i was 13, and I've had the neck jerk tic, since i was maybe 9 or 10. Then later in life it grew into other motor tics such as blinking, eye rolling and so on. I never told people i had Tourette's because i felt that their perception of it, was so far from what i had. I didn't want to explain, cause i was scared of being accused of faking anyway.
Then when i was about 15 i developed more vocal tics, such as sniffing, squeaking, saying yes or no or repeating words. This wasn't as subtle as it had been before, and i felt like people were looking weirdly at me. I explained that i had Tourette's and i felt that people believed me. But then when i had a better period, where i would have little to no tics around those people, i felt like they tought i had been faking it.
I still don't know how to handle this. I feel like I'm faking Tourette's when i have longer periods without many tics, but when they return, i feel like I'm faking it as well. My tics usually aren't too crazy unless im going through a hard period. Even though it's nice when i have few tics, i kinda wish that it would be a constant so it would be easier for others and myself to understand and get used to.
I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, but if you're experiencing something similar, what do you do? Feel free to ask questions or just tell your own story.