I have no idea how human relationships work.
Human relationships confuse me. I've never been in a romantic or sexual relationship, you can barely call my friendships "friendships".
Every friendship I've had the past 8ish years has been something like "we talk at school, exhabge a few messages online at best, maybe hang out once a month, and after a year we stop talking".
I've never had a "bestie" or something I've mostly been by myself. Obviously I'm the problem -me, my actions or my personality-. I try to be kind to people, not bother them too much, learn about them and their hobbies. But the moment I stop initiating everything is the moment we start falling apart.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I've got more nerdy interests (which are rarer in the small town I live in) but I try to engage with other's interests as well. I'm not the club-going, drinking-all-night person so maybe that's the issue?
Honesty, I'm just frustrated. I'm leaving for college and I don't want to be the loner ghost again. Just what am I doing so wrong