I just can’t stop thinking
I don’t even know how to title this post, I’m just constantly aware of how monotonous life is and it makes me so like.. suffocated and angry?
like I feel like I’m just waiting for something to happen to feel alive again
all I do is work, go to uni, sleep, work, go to uni, sleep, etc, over and over and over and over
the only other person I can talk to who even remotely understands is my brother
i I feel like I’ve experienced an ego death life just doesn’t feel real anymore
My life isn’t even bad. I have a good life! Nothing is wrong at all I don’t get it. I’m not depressed and I have a great circle of friends and family I just feel so disconnected I wish there was a third place outside of sleeping and being awake I just want to stop going back into life every morning
life is awesome I’m so grateful to be alive and I don’t want to die at all!!! But I just wish there was some kind of third option I can’t describe it
I’m so sorry if this post sounds like a ramble I just have no idea how to communicate what I’m feeling! it’s impacting my life
I’m grieving a past that isn’t even sad and a future that hasn’t even happened- like I just don’t know how to stop feeling like this! I just want to feel real again. Please.
please