I am so tired of living this way. Husband told me he was "done" about one month ago now. Nothing has changed except he sleeps in the spare bedroom. We only talk about non personal things and just every day logistics. I think I'm over the initial shock of it and now going through so many emotions.
I'm so lonely even though I'm around people most of the time. Trying to work, take care of our daughter, take care of the house and some self care is so exhausting. I just want to move on from this state.
At first I was desperate to hold onto our relationship but it's shifted to me thinking about why? I've been unhappy too but I think just resistant to change. It seems easier to just stay as is rather than shake up our whole lives. Especially concerned about my 8 year daughter who is a very sensitive child and I know how much our break up would hurt her.
I've been so scared to talk to him about our situation but I know we have to. Sitting in this ambiguous stage is terrible too.
I want him to leave since he made the decision that he was done and didn't want to try counselling. I don't think he will though for multiple reasons. It seems easier when he's out of the house because I don't feel on edge. I just don't feel like I have a safe place to fall.
My therapist told me to tell him how I'm feeling even if it was a written message but I'm so scared of being vulnerable and being rejected because he seems so cold and distant towards me. He's obviously protecting his heart but I still try to be friendly and talkative even though I'm devastated. On the other hand he's feeding us every day and bringing home a coffee or whatever for me without asking. He says that we're both good people but not good partners. There's been a lack of interest in intimacy on my part because there's been a lack of communication and connection between us. I've told him I just don't feel close to him.
I just desperately want things to work out but I'm so scared they won't.