u/Few_Oil_2151

i 18F have had this itching feeling for years .. or thought I’m not sure … I’ve been saying it’s confusion or just a phase.. but I can’t help it .. I think I like girls..? Or I don’t I’m not sure all I know is for years and I mean more then 5 years I’ve had an attraction to females … and males but at times I just can’t picture myself with a female .. then out of nowhere I’d want it so bad more then anything .. I find guys attractive sure .. but I also find them not ..? If that makes sense .. the thought of having a girlfriend.. or even being with girl in that way .. just sparks something in me I can’t quite understand .. is it just my mind wanting to explore.. or is it a part of me I’m so desperately hiding ?.. I don’t know but I’m scared .. cause I don’t think I can accept that part of who I might be