edit: meant to say 7th grade not 7th in title
from 2nd grade onward if i ever acted out/was rebellious, my mom would tell me that my future wife would leave me. if not that, she would say my future kids would hate me bc my wife and i would argue alot.
later on during covid i got into an argument with her and she told me "idk what i would do if i was married to someone like you. I guess I would kill myself.". lmao this argument was literally about me going out to eat or sum simple bs.
when i was in elementary she would CONSTANTLY tell me that i would abandon my dad and her in a nursing home to rot. if i ever argued back, she would laugh and then tell my dad i was a liar and not even address me.
she also did alot of other bs like denying that I was SAed bc it was her brother who did it.
i didn't call her out on this bs until i was 18 bc she kept gas lighting me by saying i was the luckiest kid in the planet to have them as parents or that i did good stuff in my past life to have them.
I haven't had a conversation with her for months but i live in her home. If i see her, she keeps appologizing to me and lies on the floor crying or sum bs about how she wants to talk to me. She tries to talk to me alot but i don't say anything to her back. it still streses me out tho and the only way i can find a way to leave me alone is to hit myself, put holes in walls, or straight up choke myself. looking for a non destructive way to fix this, i alr leave the house as much as possible. also looking to see if any other asian kids have had similar experiences lol.
sorry if it seems like spam bc i posted this maybe a few months ago but now i need advice bc i live in her house until i leave for college and she makes life hell.