u/Few_Veterinarian_962

I don't know what else to say. I do not know how I will live my life like this. I have been living with it on and off for 23 years. I have had several years in a row just suffering, I've had months of suffering and weeks of suffering. I've had good years, months and days as well. I greatly appreciate the good days but living like this is hell and only us sufferers know how bad. It's very lonely. Just needed to vent. I am a middle aged woman and I feel at this stage I should know how to deal, but every time it creeps in, I spiral. Feeling very pathetic and sorry for myself today. I don't have the strength right now.