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I've been talking to her for about two months now. We met a year ago but stopped talking until she reached out to me again. Ever since then I started to talk a lot to her and eventually we started to vent a lot to each other. I tried to give her advice and handle it to the best of my ability. Aside from that we talked about a lot of different things and idk I just sort of started to like her and got really close with her. Today we talked as normal, I mostly talked about my day and also sent her a voice message as I promised to do so a few days ago to explain some stuff about my language, she ended up telling me my voice is very cute and everything was fine until I asked if when she said she didn't feel well she meant just sickness (as she mentioned she felt sick a couple of days before) or if something happened. She told me she had an argument with her mom and that she doesn't want to exist anymore, that she doesn't even want to study because she doesn't see any future for herself, that she feels basically like a useless person, that she shouldn't keep living and that she feels there's no cure for these toxic thoughts anymore. She then apologized for showing me that side of herself. I told her that she can show me all of herself and I don't really mind, to not say this about herself, that she is amazing, that there is absolutely is a future for her and that if she can find strength to study she should, I pleaded her to keep living even if it is for others and not for herself. I told her I wish I could hug her right now. I also asked if she has been taking her antidepressants and told her to please reconsider therapy as it can really help with those thoughts. She said she doesn't have strength for things like therapy and that she has been thinking of taking all of her antidepressants so she could finally be at peace and that she has been wanting everything to stop for a while. I pleaded her not to. I told her to even force herself to go to therapy if she has to because it will do her good long term. She said she can't do this anymore and that she doesn't have strength or reasons to keep going. Then I just begged her to not do anything stupid, to keep living even if it was just for me, that I'd hate to lose her and that I hate myself for not being able to help. She told me I helped her with many things and that this pain has been there for many years and she's not sure that much longer she can carry it. I told her I hate how she feels this way and that I wish I could do something. I told her I'll always be here if she needs it. She told me she has an appointment with her psychiatrist on Saturday and said she does feel she needs some more inventive help. She also said she sometimes went days without taking her antidepressants because she had no energy to take the medicine. I told her she can't take meds one day and then not take them another because they may not work well. I also told her that I hope she feels better eventually.

This conversation was so exhausting and it honestly made me cry. I'm worried she will hurt herself as she has told me she has tried to attempt before. I don't know what to do.

I've been talking to her for about two months now. We met a year ago but stopped talking until she reached out to me again. Ever since then I started to talk a lot to her and eventually we started to vent a lot to each other. I tried to give her advice and handle it to the best of my ability. Aside from that we talked about a lot of different things and idk I just sort of started to like her and got really close with her. Today we talked as normal, I mostly talked about my day and also sent her a voice message as I promised to do so a few days ago to explain some stuff about my language, she ended up telling me my voice is very cute and everything was fine until I asked if when she said she didn't feel well she meant just sickness (as she mentioned she felt sick a couple of days before) or if something happened. She told me she had an argument with her mom and that she doesn't want to exist anymore, that she doesn't even want to study because she doesn't see any future for herself, that she feels basically like a useless person, that she shouldn't keep living and that she feels there's no cure for these toxic thoughts anymore. She then apologized for showing me that side of herself. I told her that she can show me all of herself and I don't really mind, to not say this about herself, that she is amazing, that there is absolutely is a future for her and that if she can find strength to study she should, I pleaded her to keep living even if it is for others and not for herself. I told her I wish I could hug her right now. I also asked if she has been taking her antidepressants and told her to please reconsider therapy as it can really help with those thoughts. She said she doesn't have strength for things like therapy and that she has been thinking of taking all of her antidepressants so she could finally be at peace and that she has been wanting everything to stop for a while. I pleaded her not to. I told her to even force herself to go to therapy if she has to because it will do her good long term. She said she can't do this anymore and that she doesn't have strength or reasons to keep going. Then I just begged her to not do anything stupid, to keep living even if it was just for me, that I'd hate to lose her and that I hate myself for not being able to help. She told me I helped her with many things and that this pain has been there for many years and she's not sure that much longer she can carry it. I told her I hate how she feels this way and that I wish I could do something. I told her I'll always be here if she needs it. She told me she has an appointment with her psychiatrist on Saturday and said she does feel she needs some more inventive help. She also said she sometimes went days without taking her antidepressants because she had no energy to take the medicine. I told her she can't take meds one day and then not take them another because they may not work well. I also told her that I hope she feels better eventually.

This conversation was so exhausting and it honestly made me cry. I'm worried she will hurt herself as she has told me she has tried to attempt before. I don't know what to do.

I mostly need to vent about some stuff. Maybe about two months ago I went back to talking with a girl I lost contact with for a year. We started to talk a lot and we bonded rather quickly. She started to vent to me about a lot of things and the thing is I wish I could do something. She has a horrible home life, she has no irl friends and she is battling depression. She has said sometimes she wishes she would just have someone to hug her and I wish I was there to hug her. I wish I could take her away from her horrible life at home. I wish I could hang out with her irl so she doesn't feel so alone. But I can literally do nothing. She's on the other side of the world. And it makes me feel so sad and frustrated that I am just so powerless. I feel like I've never been this close with anybody. Not ever since I stopped being friends with my ex-best friend at least. I think about her 24/7 wondering if she's okay. I keep worrying about her when she doesn't respond. I wish she would talk to me every day so I know she's okay. But I know that she can't text me everyday because her parents would complain she uses her phone too much and eventually just takes it away. And I know that sometimes she will just not text me back because she's feeling horrible and just doesn't have energy to or maybe just doesn't want to respond. I try to tell her to not believe in what her toxic dad tells her that she doesn't have a future. I try to make sure she knows she is beautiful because she is and I don't understand how someone this gorgeous can be insecure. I try to make sure she knows she isn't boring and that she is amazing and deserves to be loved and that she is going to find a girlfriend for sure and not to worry about it. But really all I can do is text her things. It's frustrating that we live so far away from each other. I sometimes check my phone when I randomly wake up in the middle of the night to see if maybe she texted back since she sometimes does as we're from different timezones. The first thing I do in the morning is check if she texted me anything. It's probably the first time I've thought about someone this much.