I broke up with my partner of 12 years yesterday
This is more of a “I don’t know where else to vent/confess/look for support” kind of post. My boyfriend and I (both 47) had been together for almost 13 years. I was diagnosed five years ago and am almost at my five years cancer free mark. He was supportive and helpful during treatment - it was during Covid so he wasn’t always able to be with me.
Post cancer, our relationship changed. We’ve always been unconventional - not interested in marriage or even living together. But I would say it worked for us. Until it didn’t. I lost all interest in sex after treatment despite my best efforts to keep it going. I just…didn’t care if I ever had sex again. This was a big adjustment for him as we always had an active sex life. He needed sex to feel close and I needed to feel close to have sex. We never got that spark back.
We’ve been limping along but basically living more like friends than partners. Yesterday I finally decided that isn’t what I want for either of us. We are both deserving of passion and romance and partners who truly love each other. And I just fell out of love with him.
I don’t know what I’m posting this for, other than I just need to get it out. Thanks for listening.