u/Fickle-Walrus-9940

it’s pathetic.. i know. it’s better than messaging you so here I am typing this. I really miss your warm body. you hate your belly but I always loved your body. I never understood why you wanted to lose weight.. I miss you babe. i really wish you hadn’t turned out to be this abusive, scary and gross individual. I hate that I dated a total stranger! I never knew the real you for seven months straight! makes sense as to why you loved to bring me down. im not saying I’m perfect, definitely am not. I sure as hell tried to be your perfect girlfriend but what you really wanted was someone to fuck and degrade. i wish I hadn’t spent so much time on you. i endured so much abuse from you… worst part is i didn’t even know it at the time. you made me believe i was the cause of all of our problems but all of it was projection. I hate you so much. i hate that i miss you, not who you actually are but who i thought you were… I hate you for making me develop heart palpitations and panic attacks. irreversible damage yet here I am missing your warm body on a thursday night. who knew you were an empty evil vessel…