weed makes me more productive
Hi everyone hope you're having a good day!
i know the title sounds like someone who's headed the wrong direction lol, but just to be clear i don't use it often at all i use it very occasionally and intentionally anyway,
I've had this weird experience when i get high, i feel like my mind does not play those mind games that make me suffer in my day to day life, like I'm able to track down the patterns of my thought, take action on tasks i want to do, feel like i can function if that makes sense,
an example of this is what happened to me the other day where i saw and accepted why i just don't do the things i want to do, i only do things i want to do and in the rare occasions i do things i want to do i do them in the way i think i should do, but usually that "should" just makes me not do the thing cause i end up piling an infinite list of shoulds (or the should becomes this massive huge mental load) that i just want to avoid it. until now i didn't notice that a lot of my suffering came from not doing the thing like i struggle to add brushing my teeth into my morning routine but when i got high i just got into this mode where i just thought ok I'm going to brush my teeth and instantly i did it, and after that session I've been brushing my teeth pretty often and on a good schedule (i know it might just be the initial phase where i feel good about the action but I'm committed to making it a habit cause damn im 25 i gotta have that down already anyway),
this was even the case with my hobby/pursuit of making it on youtube, i actually went through with a video idea without pausing and making this enormous expectation of quality out of it, point is it weirdly makes me productive and not like making me go after money but makes me do the things i want for my life, now i have a feeling this isn't the best solution to rely on weed for that lol,
I guess I'm wondering if anyone has had that happen to them as well and if you did, is there a way to do that without weed (the whole oh i have an idea, let me just execute, instead of going into intellectual mode)?
also sorry fore all the typos, got my first mechanical keyboard cause i thought it was cool but it just makes my friends think I'm having a stroke so far.