I want to stop gooning
I’m 19F and I genuinely feel embarrassed even typing this out lol. I masturbate/goon like 2–3 times a day consistently. I work a full-time 9–5 job and by the time I get home I feel insanely pent up sexually, like all the stress and tension just turns into that.
The thing is, I already have a girlfriend (19F) who I love a lot, which makes me feel even more weird/guilty about it. It’s not like she’s neglecting me or anything. I just still constantly feel horny all the time and it’s honestly getting distracting.
Sometimes I’ll do it before work, after work, and again before sleeping. It’s gotten to the point where it feels more compulsive than just “normal horny teenager” stuff. I don’t even always enjoy it afterwards, sometimes I just feel kinda gross or embarrassed.
I haven’t told my girlfriend how often I do it because I’m scared she’ll think I’m weird or addicted. I also spend a lot of time online which probably doesn’t help.
Has anyone else dealt with this? Especially other women? How do you tell if it’s just high libido/stress relief vs an actual problem? And how do you stop when it becomes a habit?