What do I do when silence hurts so bad M17 F17
I texted my ex. I only said, “hey”. i texted him this yesterday at 2pm and it’s now today at 12pm. the reason why I did this was because I was talking to some friends and they thought I needed to talk to him because I can’t stop thinking about him and I still I think am in love with him, I can’t even trust anyone else i literally developed trust issues now I don’t know how to fix. because what do you mean you used to text me paragraphs at night just to ensure me that you love me? we promised each other so many things and now it’s gone. i have no motivation most days to even do anything I feel like I’m going insane. more context, we broke up 11 months ago due to my terrible actions because I was young and dumb and immature and made a mistake that hurt him. we broke up and he got with a girl after which I knew was just a rebound I could tell.. but it still hurt but I’ve forgiven him for everything and he said he forgave me. i just don’t understand. also, we were together for 11 months which may not sound like a lot but for me it is. more context, he’s 17 and I’m 17 now. i know it’s been months and “I should be better” or whatever but I just want to be in love with him so bad. I feel like I’m going insane because It just hurts I cry for no reason all the time because I feel like ill never get to talk to him again. more context, he texted me in January 2026, we texted some and just shared what’s going on and he said how he’s done with relationships because so many people have hurt him. another thing is that he used to be kinda suicidal so I’m worried, what if he’s not here anymore? is that why it just says delivered? everything just hurts.