Resources for deconstructing Christian
I left the church about 2.5 years ago, and it's been a journey to say the least, lol. After the initial grief of walking away, I took a pretty long break from anything spiritual/religious, but I think I'm in a place now where I'm ready to face my doubts and the shame of walking away. I still have a lot of questions and I sometimes feel like I might have made the wrong decision. My whole family is still very Christian, and they have very good (and what seems to be sound) arguments for their faith.
I've had a hard time finding good resources for a deconstructing Christian. I've discovered that most people who reject Christianity really don't have a good understanding of the religion or the bible at all. A lot of them never even grew up in the church.
I am specifically looking for resources from people who have studied the bible very deeply explain why they left the church. I want in-depth books or articles that help to break down the philosophy of the bible and explain why faith does (or doesn't) work for some people.
Note: although I no longer align with Christianity, I would not necessarily consider myself an atheist. Most arguments I hear against Christianity come atheists... so I'm open to any resource from any viewpoint (especially spirituality) Lol. Thanks!!!