Boyfriend cheating
I want to get my thoughts off my chest.
I have bpd and avpd, I’m madly in love and emotional attached to my boyfriend.
I’ve never had a close person like this, I’ve never trusted anyone like this, and I never genuinely thought I could get any love like this, even though It’s not the greatest.
He’s been talking with his ex, calling her beautiful and how the family misses her.
I’ve went thru his phone one night after he has been distant. And found so much. I only told him I saw the messages with his ex.
- he told me he only wanted to comfort her, because “her life was hard at the moment”.
I also saw how he interacts with girls on tiktok, and comments heart emojis and so on.. on sexual posts.
He lies so much, and I know I might have to end it but it feels impossible.
He also recently told me, that he unfollowed her and stopped talking with her “out of respect for me”, idk if it’s true.
I don’t understand how we’re so close and sleep together almost everyday, since we’ve been tg - which is 6 months. I know it’s not a long time, but we shared many intimate moments, not just sex. - and so much more.
I feel heartbroken, knowing I’m not enough, when I already give him more than any girl ever has.
I’m sure he’s keeping his options open and acting half single online. But it genuinely messes with my mind, because at the same time he often says he wants me to move in with him, once he moves closer to the city I live in.
I’m genuinely shaken.
The grammar here is not the greatest, and I’m missing out so much detail. But I needed to vent, even if this reaches no one❤️