Who has had a Ruben in their life?
My Dad is like Ruben. I love him so much and I'm terrified of him. No one is so warm, no one so likely to burn you.
When I was a kid, like tiny, he'd make me play this "game" where he'd bend one of my fingers back while making intense eye contact, when I flinched, I lost.
He'd take me out on drives and suddenly floor it and we'd go round a roundabout on two wheels.
Once I met him in the pub (only place to catch him, work or pub) for fathers day. Within an hour he'd pushed me off my bar stool "protecting" me as he reached across me to punch a guy in the face.
He sounds dreadful but the world is ALIVE when he is in it and the feeling of his love is like nothing else when it beams on you. In many ways I think the sexuality stuff in Half Man is a red herring, these kinds of people need to own every part of you...they make you feel stuff as intensely as possible because then you're hooked on them like a drug. I understand Niall, it fucks you up when someone like this decides you're theirs...they make sure they are the rolling hills, and you're stuck walking them in your mind forever.