Why can't anybody see me??
This might be just some kids rambling and I know I'll shame delete it later but for now I'll just...
UGH. I met this person and they were so kind and open and I felt like I understood them perfectly. like predicting their emotions before even they can level. And I convinced myself it's because they're just like me and I had fun and started to love them. But then I realized how dumb that is.
The times they were kind to me were when they projected their feelings onto me.
They hadn't asked me a genuine question unprompted about myself in months.
They had 0 curiosity about me as a person. They didn't want to know or understand me they just assumed they did.
They gave me dismissive answers whenever I talked about my thoughts or feelings while they talked about theirs for hours and I f**king listened every single time. AND I ENJOYED IT.
I fell in love with a shallow and uncaring person. I was so desperate to be understood that I didn't even see it.
And worse I don't even know how to stop.
I'm so mad I can't even put it into words right now.