u/Fine_leaded_coated

I'm +40 no real family left (if i had any) not wealthy not completely poor, no friends... we all know how it is. I have the opportunity to move somewhere else hopefully not so populated (hyper turistic area) and looking for ideas.

Add some mild agoraphobia from not going out much and my mind is blank. It triggers my suicide thoughts so much i just want to dissapear. Going alone but where and to do what?

Time and isolation washed all my motivation for everything away, the only thing resembling an interest is playing videogame sometimes. It's like years since i leaved the city and feel trapped. It's too much.