u/Fionaah_am_i

I'm in 11th and in aakash for jee which is pretty horrible btw. Faculty is bad and bacche bhi kafi bure hai academically like bas 2-3 bacche are good academically nobody else 30 bacchon ke batch me . I can't change this year because I was in neet before at pw so My mom changed me to aakash. (Pw was better I think but lacked structure)

On top of that I would not likr to glorify myself either. I have concentration issues, I don't really know how to study seriously and stuff. I am trying to study but idk where im getting coz im Just doing anything atp. Aakash calls me for 9 fckin hours for backup+regular classes 4 days continuous and most days there's no backup or too fast. This batch started in March I joined July. I waste ALOT of time in aakash too I try to study tho.

It's not like I don't want to do jee I want it but im a maladaptive daydreamer who goes to bed at 12 but sleeps at 2-3 (phone) so yeah not really studying much when I return from bakwaas institute too. Only 1.5-2 hrs of self study.

I waste gap days/barely study I litreally dont know what to do i get bored real easily I can hyperfocus but usually am bored if i can't solve or shit. I do try to breakdown tasks but still rarely get my to do list ticked.

Now coz of a hone tutor (who never came again btw) I bought RD sharma for math which is clearly school level and my modules are jee mains level. I want to solve atleast one extra adv book foe math ts year.

But I'm not able to really solve all module questions either its like I didn't hear shit in class when the chap went on byt I wasny even on screens. Yes I can solve it after I ask doubts but not all of it still. I can solve chapters I watched from yt tho.

Except math idk how to approach other modules/subs there's backlog.

I am devoid of guilt and anxiety so id advise yall not to guilt trip or smth as everyone around me tries to and it only ends up in me doing self destructive/destructive behavior more.

Pls tell me what worked for yall gng I don't want to waste 11th. Im average. 🥀🥀🥀

TL;DR - bad faculty at coaching. Not able to study efficiently. Average academically and have concentration issues. Not driven by guilt and anxiety but passionate and ambitious. Need one medium to good book which doseng make me feel dumb (maths adv).

Ok so hey first of all im here again i asked a question last 6 montgs ago i think not the first time asking for advice. Second of all I've had multiple stream changes from March to now. I initially planned to take commerce with math but later due to parents and job opportunities and confusion I didn't. Now I want to change to comm with math. But im already in neet in aakash and ive tried neet for 2 months but realised im not interested. I tried jee too but because of maths backlogs and no extra support I left it.

I asked my mom either to get me transferred to jee or get me admitted to my old school who was ready to give me comm with math. But she said you'll have to listen to me blah blah or ask your dad. I even apologised and cried and talked politely discussed and all as my therapist asked me to.

My dad's mentally retarded and he dosent Bear any expense or problem and basically he's quite useless. If he was a normal dad ofc id go to him then deal with her.

So what should I do? I really don't know what to do here? Also be honest should I give pcm a try because I've 90 % of physics chemistry complete except maths and it opens doors but idk if ill burnout Mt mental health hasn't been best in a few years exactly. And Idk what they're gonna do? Any advice for what I can do now?