My trans friend asked me this question. I thought about it, and ultimately said yes. She didn't pursue past that and apoligized cause i got uncomfortable, but it did get me lost in thought.
Im not willing to transition, its a scary and painful road compared to being a secret femboy.
Whats your answer?
I grew up lower middle class. Like the "must have a coupon for everything", close to 0 travel, but, never worried about homelessness, enough to survive but not enough to live. Ever since I graduated and started earning money, I've been extremely frugal, initially to build up a safety net due to anxiety, but then I just developed this addition to "number go up" dopamine.
I also kill most social life with this mindset. Through mentality that is like: Why go to a coffee ship when coffee at home is cheaper. Why go to a gym when I can do everything I need with a yoga mat and some dumbells at home? I go to resturaunts like twice a year for parents' birthdays because I can cook at home and brain cant rationalize paying for something i can do myself. But that kills all 3rd spaces for me
I'm 29, and I feel like I haven't lived life. I haven't traveled (besides work trips with limited free time), I've never been on a date or had a girlfriend or even (u know).
But I feel happy on the personal scoreboard, nearing retirement with 700k in personal investment accounts, 350k in retirement accounts, and 300k paid on a 900k condo in NYC tristate. I don't feel unhappy, but I feel like I'm missing out on life and maybe future me will regret it.