Help
M19 I’ve had a stutter my whole life. It kinda comes and goes.
When I was younger it was more like a normal stutter, like repeating the first part of words. Then when I was a young teen I started getting blocks for about a year. Those went away eventually and it went back to regular stuttering.
Now I’m an adult and the blocks are back bad. Like half the time I can’t even get through one sentence. Doesn’t matter who I’m talking to either, it could be my mom, my girlfriend, coworkers, my own kid, literally anyone.
It makes it hard to socialize because I feel like I can’t even get my thoughts out. It’s also messing with me at work because sometimes I can’t explain things clearly when I need to. I know exactly what I’m trying to say, but my chest and throat will literally lock up and I’m just standing there with my mouth open looking frozen. I can usually tell when it’s about to happen too, and then I start overthinking it and psych myself out, which makes me block even harder.
It honestly makes me feel like a failure as a person sometimes because I can’t just talk normally.
Has anyone else had blocks come back this bad later in life? What helped?