I have noticed , with certain things, not all things but certain things I hyper focus on and start to really enjoy , my brain will conjure up some way to try and convince me it’s bad.
An example of this, would be I really enjoy reading fantasy and romance books. When I first started reading them, I considered myself a Christian but have since taken a big step back from it. That said, I still have a lot of respect for the religion and consider myself a spiritual person now.
My mind has been telling me that I gave up my faith to read these books. That I’m ignoring my discernment, that by owning them I may allow demons in my house, that I may suffer for it because I’ve been ignoring God.
Sometimes I can really just let it go because I talk to my husband about it and avoid certain tropes that make me uncomfortable. But sometimes I get the urge to get rid of all my books.
All that said, as of recently I had a fantastic book idea that has been inspired by my OCD come to mind and writing it has been such an outlet but that fear is starting to take root again.
I don’t want to be robbed of this, but I’ve never really had religious themes before so I’m not sure if this is what it can sound like.