my ex girlfriend is scaring me
(posting on an alt because my main has food and games and fun stuff and i want to keep it that way)
basically me 15m and my ex 14f were dating for about 6 months and it was really going great. i play the violin so i obviously need to practice and i practice close to 2-3 hours a day. i set clear boundaries that i will try to practice every day so i would appreciate it if they followed that. i’ll be honest… i just didn’t stick to it and was talking for 5 or more hours a day. towards the end of my school year, it is concert time and i really needed to practice because i was behind and i am currently playing 3 instruments so i was practicing before, during lunch, and after school.
she said she didn’t mind and then would still try to spend time with me, like trying to talk while running my songs, poking me until i would talk and overall being kind of a nuisance. i personally hate arguments and don’t like making people mad or sad so i kind of just bit my tongue and took it and god that was a mistake. she would constantly get mad at me for not giving her enough attention and giving my friends more attention than her, even though i hardly talked with them at this point. she would cry and scream at me during school and make me look like a shitty person and then cut me off for a few days, then pretend like nothing happened, but then got mad when i was confused and hurt by this. this happened pretty much weekly for about 2 months and honestly i started dreading seeing her and i stopped smiling and laughing woth her because of the built up resentment. it got even worse when she would see me smiling with my bros and then she would yell at me that i liked them more than her and cry and kind of slap and hit me.
i realized this wasn’t healthy so at month four i tried to break up with her and said that i was too busy and i wasn’t having fun anymore and that i stopped having feelings. now brace yourselves from here on. she then threatened to kill herself and tell people i raped her if i ever thought about breaking up again and that we’re going to get married and be happy forever. so yeah i got scared and stayed in that for about 1 1/2 months, before i started recording convos and trying to get something to save myself. i couldn’t take my parents and siblings into this otherwise they might set something off in her. i then tried to break up, this time with proof, and i actually worked… kind of. they slapped me and ran off crying, but i considered it a success. i thought i was free but then she started following me home, taking pictures of me at school and now she’s kind of touching me? every so often she will kind of bump into my arms and stuff and like kind of grab my hand and press up against me.
that brings me to now. i don’t have any proof of her doing this stuff to me but she always has her phone hidden except her camera and it’s always pointed at me and she isn’t very subtle. she is actually scaring me and i don’t know how to tell my parents this. i need help on what to because im afraid shes going to hurt me or acuse me. she has also told people we didn’t break up and that we’re going to get back together. she really wanted to have sex from the first week we started dating and i guess me too but i wanted to wait as i didn’t want to rush things. i know this is horrible and i need to tell someone but i just feel trapped and scared and alone and i don’t know what to do. whatever details you need i’ll answer them i. the comments and i wont hide anything so feel free to ask anything. thanks and please help