i ruin everything
there was a girl i liked about a year ago and one day i slept over at someone we was both friends with house it was my first time having a sleep over ever. but we ended up drinking and smoking and she told me she loved me and we did it but i was so happy i told my friends and they told over people and since she was very popular it got around my school and she ended moving because she said she didnt want to be known as the girl that slept with the quite loser that looks like he'd shoot up a school... and after she moved i dropped out school and now i have nothing going for me i dont work i dont leave my bed i dont clean i barely eat and im a 6'3 male at 85 pounds.. i hate myself so much i carved loser into my body because its all i am im never going to be anything im never going to find anyone for me