Relationship ocd
The intrusive thoughts of my relationship OCD are wearing me down. What's destroying me is not having the tools to understand which are genuine doubts I have about my relationship and my boyfriend and which are doubts fueled by OCD. I need help. I had to stop going to my therapist because I was out of money. Now I'm groping in the dark. It seems so unfair to my boyfriend. I'm thinking of asking him for a break. Every time I find someone else attractive, even for a second, i end up overthinking it, and I don't know if it's OCD or if it's a symptom that there's something wrong in my relationship. But I'm not just talking about the potential attraction to someone else. I question him as a person constantly; I dissect every little mistake he makes; every time he breaks my expectations, I question my love for him and our future together. We've been together for five years now, and I love him, truly. And he's patient and understanding. But I feel like a traitor. He doesn't deserve to be with someone who constantly doubts his qualities, because he is great. This isn't the way to go. I feel like this will spell the end of my relationship. I need advice.