u/Firm-Kaleidoscope915

I’m sorry, but I need to take a small step back.

Someway, somehow…

I need to detach. Detach myself, from you.

I don’t know why I’m apologizing. You’d probably not even notice.

It’s just too hard on me emotionally, to feel so close to you when we spend time together, when you are giving me attention and being so warm

and then to suddenly be met with unexplained distance and silence and cold

over and over again.

Even though I know full well the pattern, and I’ve tried to convince myself, and you, I’m fine with it

I’m just…not.

Each time, I can’t help but get attached, when you’re here, and then disappointed, once you’re gone.

It’s just weighing on me, wearing on me. I’m getting exhausted...