u/Firm-Net-4594

I 19m was always the type of person who thought that eating disorders were stupid, like “how can someone hate their body so much” type of way. A while ago (when i was 17) i started getting into deep depression which i have struggled with for a very long time. I have tried to harm myself in other ways, but in this particular depressive episode i started binging and purging as a form of punishment and an act of shame. I got so used to it that i can’t stop. I can’t stop eating is the main problem, which automatically results in me purging. I eat out of frustration, calling myself names as i do, and i purge from the shame. The more i did this the more it became less of sh and i actually started doing it because of body image. I’m afraid that it’ll just get worse but i’m not exactly sure what I’m supposed to do since the country i live in doesn’t take eating disorders seriously