Feeling lost in the UK. Fellow Cocos, how do you deal with the isolation?
Hi guys, I really needed a safe space to vent. I’m 23M, finished my Masters in the UK last October. I’ve been on the job hunt for months now, but it’s just daily rejections in my domain. To keep things moving, I’m working random odd jobs and sending whatever I can back home to clear my educational loan.
The thing is, it’s taking a massive toll on my mental health. I’m getting bad panic attacks and I barely sleep because I’m genuinely terrified I won’t wake up tomorrow. I want to go home so badly, but the loan feels like a chain around my neck.
What’s messing with my head even more is seeing my classmates. Most of them are also working the same random jobs I am, but they seem fine, they’re going on trips and posting happy stories, while I’m spiraling. I’m an introvert and pretty sensitive, so maybe I’m just taking the struggle harder than they are?
Am I a coward for wanting an 'easy escape' back to Kerala just to feel safe again? Or is it worth staying and suffering like this? Also, if anyone knows of good online counselling, please let me know. I really need some perspective.