u/Firm_Business54 — reddlx

It’s been 11 months and I can still barely look at her photos - my PomPom passed unexpectedly almost a year ago (likely due to a cardiac event, she had congestive heart failure and Cushing’s). I had a few grief counseling sessions with Lap of Love which were very helpful and did EMDR about the traumatic last few hours of her life, which has also been helpful in dealing with those visuals.

That said, it’s still so painful to look at her photos because all I do is cry. I miss her so much. I wanted to make a memorial book about her and haven’t done it yet. The EMDR therapist asked if PomPom would want me to do something like that if it makes me so upset, and I don’t think she would.

A few months after her passing, I rescued a Pomeranian whose name in the shelter was Pompom. We felt it was a sign from our PomPom and while I love her and my cat nothing compares to the relationship I had with my first dog, my soul dog, PomPom.

I just re-looked at this 5 day post embryo transfer and think it’s positive?

When I saw the result after testing two days ago I thought it was obviously negative (was hoping it had been too early to tell) and went to work.

The more I read the more I wonder if it’s a faint line or an evap line since I didn’t notice it after 5 mins.

My prior (first) embryo transfer ended as a chemical at 5 weeks but I saved the tests and I had tested positive 6dpt so thought 5dpt would show something.

Tomorrow I will be 8dpt and will test and hopefully see a stronger line! I’ve noticed more symptoms (weird taste in mouth last 3 days, and cramping and ravenous hunger today). With my first child I had a metallic taste in my mouth and while this time it isn’t metallic it’s a strange intermittent taste I’ve never had before.